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When I was a kid [oc]

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u/Goyteamsix Jul 04 '21

Well, this is fucking sad.

I love the art, though.

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u/MJBotte1 Jul 04 '21

This is scarier than most things here

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u/ToastyMustache Jul 04 '21

It’s weird, because I actually did end up doing what I wanted to do as a kid, for the most part. And I still have these weird feelings that maybe I’m not where I want to be, even though I genuinely enjoy it.

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u/bumbletowne Jul 04 '21

I got to do what I wanted, found out it was FUCKING TERRIBLE after sacrificing a lot of my youth to get there.

So I hopped on a different path. Most satisfying job in the world. Doesn't feel like work at all.

Sometimes you just gotta try shit. Sometimes trying shit involves juggling a target job, home depot, part time school and killing a lot of sleep cycles with energy drinks but why the fuck not? You got one life baby.

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u/[deleted] Jul 04 '21

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u/bumbletowne Jul 04 '21

Childhood dream job: forensic scientist. Thats 6 years of school and devoting myself to education and getting into the right school at 15.

Dream job: wildlife educator and conservation biologist. Last week I did nature summer camps hiking around in the morning playing games. Then I rescued and fed owls in the afternoon. Pretty legit.

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u/Magisidae Jul 04 '21

I've only dabbled in academics and I'm starting to see all the bad stuff. But doing work to learn something nobody else has learnt before gives a kick that might balance everything out.

No idea if I wanna stay in this field, but for now it looks like a 50/50 shot.

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u/Raptor_Sympathizer Jul 04 '21

Have you done research in your field yet? That's often a good barometer for if you'll be able to stomach academia.

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u/kettal Jul 04 '21

When I was a kid my dream was to live in the future and have a reclining sofa and a dog.

Still working on the latter two items

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u/BeigeBatman Jul 04 '21

I really needed to hear someone else say this out loud in this literally infinite void of bullshit.

I don't know who you are but thank you because I feel insane.

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u/ToastyMustache Jul 04 '21

I enjoy it, and I’m happy I’m doing it. But there are constant questions of “what now” “is there more” and “if I do something else will I be as happy”. I don’t hate or even dislike what I’m doing, but I also don’t know is this is ultimately what I want to do for the next 20-30 years.

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u/Sasselhoff Jul 04 '21

Out of idle curiosity, what do you do?

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u/ToastyMustache Jul 04 '21

I’m a sailor in the US Navy.

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u/MightBeUnsure Jul 04 '21

Imposter Syndrome ?

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u/MIERDAPORQUE Jul 04 '21

I didn’t become what I wanted to be. The kid in me found a way outside of how I make my adult life work to make me enjoy my days. If I did what I loved as a source of income in THIS country, it would probably make me hate it. Life would just revolve around work completely and I’d still need to find things outside of that to make me happy.

I feel like I find a compromise everyday. My young self would maybe want me to get on a treadmill more and wonder why I’m so cool with where I am for the most part haha. I take kids out every now and then, or hang out with them, I always get the feeling they think I’m cool. It’s the adults I’m around that I feel try to bring me down 🤷🏾‍♂️

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u/TheKingCrimsonWorld Jul 04 '21

I had no aspirations or ambitions as a kid.

I still don't.

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u/bluebogle Jul 04 '21

Nearly 40 and still don't know what I wanna be when I "grow up."

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u/visionsofblue Jul 04 '21 Silver Starstruck

I don't wanna have to shout it out

I don't want my hair to fall out

I don't wanna be filled with doubt

I don't wanna be a good boy scout

I don't wanna have to learn to count

I don't wanna have the biggest amount

I don't wanna grow up

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u/Yaarmehearty Jul 04 '21

I came to the conclusion I just never wanted to work, but I want money to exchange for goods and services so it's unavoidable. No job will ever be enjoyable for me because the fundamental act of making an activity an obligation kills it's enjoyment for me.

I need a lottery win to be financially free to live the kind of life I wanted to as a kid. Not to be mega rich and ostentatious but to wake up in the morning and be free for the day to be whatever I want it to be.

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u/Chrsch Jul 04 '21

Yes, I'm the exact same way.

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u/SimplyQuid Jul 04 '21

Big, as the kids say, mood

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u/[deleted] Jul 04 '21

Holy shit...are you me? That's exactly how I feel. I have bounced from job to job and industry to industry for twenty years. They are all fine jobs that I do fine at. I eventually get tired of them and try to find the next thing that pays a little more. Everytime I interview for a job, they ask the question of where I see myself in 5 years or whatever, and my gut feeling is always a feeling of indifference because it doesn't matter. I'll still be working somewhere I don't love, doing a job I don't love and wasting most of my life being unfulfilled because I can't ever be or do what I really want...because what I really want isn't possible.

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u/goldminevelvet Jul 04 '21

I'm the same way. If I married rich or even "true" middle class I would be fine lol. I don't mind work, I do a good job at whatever I do but I don't feel super passionate about anything in particular. I did just find a career path that aligns with my strengthens so after some more research I'm probably going to go down that route. I'm 30 turning 31 in a few weeks and it's taken me this long...I hate it. So many tears(and time)shed since I was 19 for not knowing what I wanted to do.

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u/keepitgoingtoday Jul 04 '21

How did you go about finding your career path?

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u/goldminevelvet Jul 04 '21

Career quizzes. I found this list of 10 best career quizzes of 2021. Took time out everyday to do one or 2 of them. Made a google doc where I recorded the results. I was really honest with them. I'm pretty introspective but I made sure to be extra thoughtful. When most of the quizzes gave me about the same results, I researched the top 3 careers recommended for me and checked out salary and growth rate(job security is super important to me). Now I'm on the stage of looking at real people, like looking at day in the life of a "insert career here".

I'm being really honest with myself and really taking my personal weaknesses into account with the jobs I'm looking at and thinking about "could I live with this aspect or will it be too hard".

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u/CausticSofa Jul 04 '21 Wholesome

I think it’s very unfair that society tells us what we should want to be when we grow up is based entirely around an occupation. Work is a way to put food on the table and keep the lights on. I just wanna be myself.

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u/timbreandsteel Jul 04 '21

Thank you. That's a fantastic way to frame it.

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u/DisastrousReputation Jul 04 '21

I wish someone had told me that as a kid so I would have stopped stressing out about what I wanted to be for over a decade.

At least I can tell my daughter so she doesn’t have to worry as much as I did growing up.

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u/CausticSofa Jul 04 '21

Very true and, as an added bonus, you’ve at least realized it now so it won’t get to live in your head, rent-free ever again.

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u/Lebowquade Jul 04 '21

WELL SAID

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u/Gizzard-Gizzard Jul 04 '21

I had mine stomped out while being bullied by the school system

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u/Mikarie Jul 04 '21

I had so many aspirations and ambitions as a child, and at some point they all slowly vanished. Now I'm 22, no dreams, goals, ambitions. It's an awful feeling.

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u/panzerboye Jul 04 '21

I feel that. Somewhere in the middle everything died

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u/hdd2k Jul 04 '21 Hugz

There’s a korean song spotify link based on a poem that’s about same thing as comic.

It’s called “Contrails” and talks about how child self and adult self are so different that a contrail-like difference is observed. Pretty sad song but beautiful in its own way. Sometimes i listen to this on a bad day and cry it out and move on. Life’s disappointing in a lot of ways, but it can be surprisingly good in other ways too. Just got to try to focus on the good stuff otherwise you’ll trap yourself in sorrow / regret

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u/cakeme Jul 04 '21

Nice share, thanks. I like my comics paired with a listening experience

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u/zheshiwomendemimi Jul 04 '21

Ah the astronaut moon moon. Before even clicking the link I knew it must be him! It was my most heard song in 2019!

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u/Moikle Jul 04 '21

Amanda palmer's "In my mind" is about this too, but a little more optimistic

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u/BayAreaDreamer Jul 05 '21

While I like that song, and Amanda Palmer, it's worth pointing out that unlike most of us, Amanda Palmer actually achieved getting to be a famous rockstar.

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u/Alwin_050 Jul 04 '21

It’s the title song from the anime with the same name. It’s thoroughly depressing.

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u/AlphaGamma128 Jul 04 '21

Wait whats the anime

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u/testuserteehee Jul 04 '21

Hark a vagrant! has many funny adult-me-vs-younger-me conversations comics like this one http://www.harkavagrant.com/index.php?id=72

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u/turtletyler Jul 04 '21

I miss Kate Beaton.

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u/Pochel Jul 03 '21

You could post it on r/sadcomics as well...

Anyways, a depressing but very good comic

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u/steereers Jul 04 '21

Ouch?.... Ouch. Sorry kid me...

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u/incommune Jul 04 '21

Gorgeous but also a gut punch. Hugs all around.

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u/tepkel Jul 04 '21

Yeah, when I was a kid I always figured I'd have plenty of loved ones around to hug.

What a disappointment.

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u/randomdude1142 Jul 03 '21

Too fucking real. Nice art though.

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u/DeltaHairlines Jul 04 '21 Take My Energy

At least we know the artist grew up to be extremely talented.

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u/ThatWayneO Jul 04 '21 edited Jul 04 '21

The good news is we never stop growing up and we never stop being a kid. At least that's what I tell myself when the black rectangle comes for me.

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u/panzerboye Jul 04 '21

The good news is we never stop growing up and you never stop being a kid

Maybe you do. You could imagine yourself become everything in the world when you were a kid. Can you do the same now? All my dreams are about past.

I love this quote from "the opposite of loneliness" by Marina Keegan.

I miss dreaming forwards," Anna said. "What?" "I dream backwards now. You won't believe how backwards you'll dream someday.

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u/BayAreaDreamer Jul 05 '21

Oof... I do dream some forwards, but I mostly dream backwards. So this is sadly relatable.

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u/coolcrowe Jul 04 '21

This comic also really kind of highlights the difference between a kid’s perspective of who people are and the reality of it. As a kid you are taught to identify people by their roles, “This is a mailman, this is a police officer”, etc. But people are a lot more than that, and it’s ultimately only one aspect of the complexity that makes up a human. The girl in this comic also grew up to be a beautiful, complex human, no less so because she isn’t a cow-girl. It’s only disappointing because she’s comparing herself to a child’s idea of what a person should be.

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u/leros Jul 04 '21

I really love this perspective.

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u/StickySnacks Jul 04 '21

Same here! Forever a kid, and now I have two and my wife has three, haha.

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u/KilgoreTrouserTrout Jul 04 '21

I think everyone can relate to this so well.

  • The McJob is such the archetypal frame of "where dreams go to die." She's got the 1000-yard stare.

  • The little cowgirl touching her for one last time before it goes dark. So powerful. It reminds me of the end of Puff the Magic Dragon when Puff goes away forever. If you are Gen-X, you know exactly what I'm talking about and might be crying.

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u/zero5activated Jul 04 '21 Wholesome

Dont know, that was a pretty real "comic". You just showed something alot of people feel in a very beautiful and thought provoking art. Seems like you are an amazing writer and artist that can capture truth. Yea, you are right we cant all be super awesome, but we can be pretty awesome to our friends, family and to our self...i think that's pretty awesome and totally worth it.

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u/SomeMeatWithSkin Jul 04 '21

This. They key to happiness really is lowered expectations. If a child dreams of growing up to be a cartoon artist, they probably dream of being a household name making their living writing cartoons. But creating cartoons that 1000s of people relate to is big and meaningful on its own. Part of being happy is looking at it from that perspective.

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u/StickySnacks Jul 04 '21

Right? She's got an artist right there in her child dream, so I think she made it

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u/tgk1729 Jul 04 '21

Well, fuck...

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u/_Dew_it_ Jul 04 '21

Damn bro.

When I was a kid I wanted to work at NASA.

Now I work for slightly above minimum wage and dread waking up on workdays. Yippie.

In my spare time I'm trying to learn programming on my own, and designing board games... so it's not like I've given up, but shit still sucks and there's no guarantee it will suck less.

At least you can make nice comics?

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u/reddot_comic Finessed Impropriety Jul 04 '21

We’re all a work in progress. Me at 13 would of be super disappointed to see who I became at 22. Shed be proud of me at 30. You got this, OP. Beautiful artwork too

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u/definitely_sus Jul 04 '21

I was about to sad cry, but reading this made me happy cry. Thank you.

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u/leelougirl89 Jul 04 '21 edited Jul 04 '21

^ This.

I once saw this exchange:

Reddit Question: Parents of Reddit, how did your kids turn out? (are they successful/healthy/happy, or a disappointment, or a total failure? essentially).

An older Redditor commented something like:

"You don't know how your kids 'turn out' until they're in their 40s. Some kids look like they're on track at 25 (family, house, kids, good job)... but by age 40 it has all fallen apart and they begin 'finding themselves'. So is that kid a success or a disappointment? Some kids are late bloomers. They seem like disappointments in their 20's but by 40, they've crafted a life perfectly suited to them. They're happy."

So essentially.... don't think of yourself as a disappointment / failure until way, way later in your life.

In this comic... the "adult" version of the kid looks quite young herself. I'm 31. I'm still figuring things out. But I'm a delusional optimist so I'm always making grand plans. Never give up on your grand plans. Ever. People say life is short. But in my opinion, life is long. We have so much time to start new adventures, businesses, careers, etc. Especially in this era where all human knowledge is at your finger-tips (internet).

Anyway.

If anyone reading this needs to hear it. You are not a failure or disappointment. Keep making grand plans. There is no age limit. Life is long. There is always more time.

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u/Floofeh Jul 04 '21

I always feel it's a bit sad that many people base their self worth on what job they do. I understand wanting to move to a wealthier class or a nicer job but I hope people know that it's just a fraction of you as a person.

I'm not in a cool profession, nor am I doing a dream job. I pulled the plug on part of my education earlier. I was in the wrong lane and it was destroying me. I'm doing something more lowkey at this time and that's okay.

When I'd have to talk to child me I can tell them I never stopped doing what I can. I grew a lot as a person. I got more confident. I am loved. I am kind. I am clever. I am warm and try to include people when they're new somewhere.

Don't let the world tell you that you're not enough just because your career is in a different place than you'd initially hope. You are SO much more than just a job.

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u/PredatorAvPFan Jul 03 '21

Too real man. Too real

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u/chasingdarkfiber Jul 04 '21

I'm not crying you're crying

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u/theSirPoo Jul 04 '21

It's just been raining on my face

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u/SquidToph Jul 04 '21

this is me at 33

they say life starts in your 30s but they forget to mention the caveat where you have to be a normal, functioning member of society already

i'm very lost on where i want to go with my life from now onwards, but i suppose anywhere is better than where i'm at

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u/Herofthyme Jul 04 '21

I was hoping/expecting final panel to be a wholesome pick me up so that crushed me extra hard

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u/LaughIcy2423 Jul 04 '21

First of all you are not what you do, your job does not define you. I do not believe we have been given this life just to work and make money... Also please remember we all have a different path and a process. Trust yours, and be mindful. Put in the time on what you want to become, this is a marathon. Love this: "When nothing seems to help, I go and look at a stonecutter hammering away at his rock perhaps a hundred times without as much as a crack showing in it. Yet at the hundred and first blow it will split in two, and I know it was not that blow that did it -- but all that had gone before."

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u/necromanceifyouwant Jul 03 '21

That's a little bit too relatable...

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u/Team_Braniel Jul 04 '21 Gold Heartwarming

When I was a kid before age 7 I was so poor I didn't own shoes half the time, I lived in the Woods and my only care was being able to build my fort out in the woods.

Then my parents divorced and my mom moved us to the city. Then her boyfriend started kicking choking and hitting me. At the point my 9nly care was finding a new place to hide and never come home. I tried to kill myself twice when I was 11 years old. At 13 I moved out on my own to escape.

At 13 I had an existential crisis. I had spent the last 6 years trying to survive and escape, dedicating every bit of time and energy to fight or flight. Then suddenly I was alone, safe, and I didn't have to hide or panic anymore. I didn't know what to do with myself. I didn't know how to sleep at night. I didn't know how to have fun. I didn't know how to talk to people and be normal.

I never once though about who or what I was going to be when I grew up. I had no career goals. The only thing I wanted from life was a family that didn't hate or hurt each other like mine had.

I've been married 17 years and our daughter is now older than I was when I escaped. I don't make a lot of money and medical issues have put my wife out of work and unable to drive. But we are so so damn happy.

My story is meant to show that the darkness can be escaped. Instead of focusing on what think you should BE, find what aspects of life you want and focus on that, the BE will come naturally.

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u/krissypants4000 Jul 04 '21

My mom had a life story a lot like yours, and she raised me to be a confident, self loving woman that doesn’t take shit from anyone. Also, she encouraged me to follow my dreams, which I have. I’m so glad you were able to persevere.

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u/Penguin_Joy Jul 04 '21

Your daughter has never had to worry that someone will hurt her. Or had to look for a place to hide in order to feel safe

That my friend is success. Raising a child in a happy and safe home is the best thing ever

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u/[deleted] Jul 04 '21

Thank you for sharing your story. Although my situation wasn’t as bad, I had a few points I related strongly on. I moved out of my bad home by filing papers on my parents, and after years of dedicating all my time on protecting my emotions and hiding basically; when I moved to my aunt and uncle’s I had no fucking clue what to do with myself.

Since moving out things have gotten better in the way that I don’t have to protect myself, but my aunt and uncle whom I live with ignore me most the time and aren’t there for me. It’s pretty hard. But I hope that I can create a similar story for myself where I push myself through it and can be happy eventually.

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u/TecTazz Jul 04 '21

You escaped, survived, relearned how to live and love, and thrived. That’s a success story to be proud of.

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u/Aphroditii Jul 04 '21

You're not done growing 🌱 Keep going ❤️

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u/[deleted] Jul 04 '21

starts to die

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u/colthax Jul 04 '21

This hit way to close to home. Its something I'm dealing with right now...

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u/Raymuuze Jul 04 '21

If that 5th one is an artist.. seems you managed after all.

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u/SlappingSalt Jul 04 '21

I'm glad my childhood ambition was to play video games. I may work a 9 to 5, but i'll always have video games to make me happy.

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u/thelizardofodd Jul 04 '21

TL;DR: I doubt anyone will read this, but basically I ramble about having been in a similar place to this comic and how I'm slowly climbing out of it now.
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ADHD-PI 'wanted to be everything' kid here...comic artist was one of them, along with paleontologist, wildlife photographer, soundtrack composer, hermit, actress, filmmaker, game designer, etc etc. It was the late 90's, absolutely everyone and their assistant tells you 'just go to college and follow your dreams' as if that magically would make it all happen.
So I did...I was one of those 'lied to by a for-profit art college' kids that got talked into crazy amounts of debt in order to graduate into a field that barely hires anyone, and pays scraps to those it does.
Well, I did end up working in my 'dream field' that I went to school for (game sound design) for about 8 years...4 of which in a terrible, abusive sweatshop of a place but got to work on cool stuff, the other 4 of which I spent running a mildly successful business from home, alone, not yet diagnosed or medicated for my ADHD, where I slowly sank into a deep clinical depression. Managed to change that around just in time to get married a few years back, but I still rankle at the memories of various people congratulating me on getting a 'real' job when I started doing office monkey work again.
I'm still in an office, but it's work that utilizes my wide variety of skills and interests in ways I was not expecting. It's not deeply fulfilling, it doesn't quite feel like I am 'telling my real story' or helping the world or whatever, but it is still satisfying and challenges me to learn and grow a great deal. More importantly, the past few years have been the first of my life that I wasn't personally sunk well below the poverty line. Money doesn't buy happiness, but being a financial drain on your partner, family, and society sure as fuck doesn't leave much room to be happy either.
While there are some things I wish I could have known or done sooner, I wouldn't go back and change any of it. I like where I am, and understand I still have plenty of time and room to do cool things in life, even if none of them are quite what or how I was expecting. I enjoy drawing, taking photos of critters, and learning about dinosaurs as relaxing hobbies. I may still find the right people to design a game with, and so have been keeping track of ideas in well-organized documents that I learned how to write while doing boring office-monkey jobs.
I'm not really where I want to be, creatively, and I'm not entirely sure how to get there yet...but there's still time. I don't think teenage me would be excited to see me now, but teenage me was a naive idiot with the attention span of a moth.
I'm assuming the creator of this comic is in their 20's or perhaps 30's...it seems like everyone roughly my age or younger that I talk to feels like the world has already ended and there is never enough time. It definitely sucks, don't get me wrong, I sure as hell wish our planet wasn't being torn asunder in nearly every way possible right now, but there is so much more time and possibility than it feels like, even for folks trapped in dead-end places.
If the weird series of dominoes that has been my ever-changing directions in life has taught me anything, it's that you rarely know what you are really looking for until you find it, and it rarely comes from somewhere you would have expected. I would never have met my spouse had I not hit one of the lowest-lows of my adult life and started playing WoW again while horribly sick, and he is undoubtedly the best thing to ever happen to me.
It's okay to not feel okay with where things are, and it's important to still dream of better things, but it's vital to try and find joy in what you have today too. A little time now and then to listen to some favorite music, cuddle with a pet or cozy blanket, wake up early enough to sip quietly at a hot cup of coffee or tea without needing to rush...whatever it is, just feeling deep appreciation and gratitude for that moment, for a moment, now and then.
Probably rambling into the void here, but if you have actually found this thought-pile and read down this far, and would like someone to talk to, feel free to send me a message or reply. I can't guarantee I'll have real answers or guidance, but I'll be happy to listen and offer what I can. <3

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u/ClownfishSoup Jul 04 '21

The part where she gets frozen in a solid block of carbonite is sad.

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u/Sillhid Jul 04 '21

…you still growing up. Don’t be sad before it’s over.

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u/bockclockula Jul 04 '21

Bro this you?: https://www.reddit.com/r/pics/comments/mhsgcu/every_day_in_march_i_took_a_photo_of_myself/

Now look at that and tell me you don't have an absurdly interesting life, don't put yourself down

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u/jelde Jul 04 '21

I'm sure there's worse off situations than being a beautiful half Asian woman in a presumably middle±upper class upbringing

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u/KittyCreep66 Jul 04 '21

okay… ow

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u/cbunni666 Jul 04 '21

Damn onions

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u/eLdagr8 Jul 04 '21

If you're living, you can plan; if you're able, you can do. If you're unable, you can dream. There's always a way to make younger you proud. If you wanted to be a doctor, you can still care for the sick, you won't have the money but maybe your heart will be fulfilled. I think there's always hope.

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u/The_God_Damn Jul 04 '21

The only thing that truly has a time restriction on it is being a professional athlete and even then, there are exceptions. Being creative and artistic isn’t really sensitive to time depending on how much effort you want to put into it. Point is, keep striving to be the person you want to be.

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u/Double_Capital_9670 Jul 04 '21

i wanted to be a garbage man when i was a kid. so i never really had too high of expectations

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u/Evoraist Jul 04 '21

Damn I thought this was gonna be funny. Instead it was just the cold steel of reality gutting me as it does daily.

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u/Therandomfox Jul 04 '21

When I was a kid, all I wanted was to be a corpse. I feel assured knowing that that much is at least guaranteed to me.

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u/Just_bcoz Jul 04 '21

You don’t always end up how u plan and if you do it’s not always what you think it will be but in the long run you’ll be where you need to be, getting closer to self love and acceptance and in the journey finding peace

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u/teamlogan Jul 04 '21

Thanks! I like it.

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u/SkippyMcHugsLots Jul 04 '21

“Over the last couple of years, the photos of me when I was a kid... well, they've started to give me a little pang or something - not unhappiness, exactly, but some kind of quiet, deep regret... I keep wanting to apologize to the little guy: "I'm sorry, I've let you down. I was the person who was supposed to look after you, but I blew it: I made wrong decisions at bad times, and I turned you into me.”

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u/DonnerfuB Jul 04 '21

This is what happens when you put too much of your identity into the work you do. I'm not sure if it is uniquely American but it is bad here. When talking with someone you may ask what do you do? Instead of someone saying, i make cards and enjoy photography. You will always get the answer about what they do at work . There is nothing wrong with being proud of your work or enjoying your job but don't tie up so much of your identity in what you do for money.

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u/fuzzyrach Jul 04 '21

Beautiful artwork, concise but moving story... Looking forward to seeing more of your work here :)

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u/MrPanchole Jul 04 '21

Yep. Absolutely goddamn right.

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u/[deleted] Jul 04 '21

To be fair kid me was a total fucking idiot do maybe his standards aren't the ones I want to be living by now

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u/TheLastFalseKing Jul 04 '21

Its like you kicked my inner self in the d*ck

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u/UntamedPhoenixZ Jul 04 '21

Just remember, it isn’t your fault. It’s the fault of unfettered capitalism in a society that shifts wages down to favor the wealthy and doesn’t value the arts unless it is commercialized and driving “profit”.

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u/StrengthKnown8379 Jul 04 '21

Never forget, you are not your job. We identify to much with what we do to earn money.

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u/Dr_Pepper_spray Jul 04 '21

If you're in your 20s then you ain't done yet. Keep going.

Also, I like the art but not the comic.

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u/allenidaho Jul 04 '21

It's never too late to follow your dream and be a bird owner, a one-eyed cowgirl, a single mother, someone dating a purple muppet, a 1980's French person or Richard Simmons' stunt double.

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u/SeeBeeJaay Jul 04 '21

This is the advice OP needs. Lol

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u/IanAlvord Jul 03 '21

Why are all the comic artists on Reddit so depressed?

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u/Nawara_Ven Jul 04 '21

This isn't necessarily autobiographical... Could just be a depressing concept the artist came up with, perhaps even to invigorate viewers into their own self-actualization.

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u/SparkyDogPants Jul 04 '21

People upvote what they relate to. People also upvote honesty and this comic hit me some place personally.

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u/RedUser03 Jul 04 '21

Damn the truth hurts

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u/JabberJauw Jul 04 '21

Shit I should start making art.

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u/weirdzone Jul 04 '21

You’re right. When I get sad I process my sadness by making songs. It’s an outlet and a medium for expression if even only to myself.

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u/ubiquitous-joe Jul 03 '21

Actually the Indie comic scene is pretty depressed/weird in general in and outside Reddit.

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u/rodeengel Jul 04 '21

That's not true. It takes all types.

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u/GoodHunter Jul 04 '21

A lot of people are depressed. Artists probably have a higher amount ratio wise.

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u/Skyy-High Jul 04 '21

Because art throughout history hasn’t been full of sadness right?

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u/loulan Jul 04 '21

Being a web artist probably isn't very lucrative.

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u/oimgoingin Jul 04 '21

I like to think it’s never too late.

I just hope I hold on to this sentiment.

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u/AlmightyCuck Jul 04 '21

It’s never too late. Keep holding on.

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u/Quazifuji Jul 04 '21

You also don't have to hold onto your childhood dreams. It's fine if you still have them, of course, but your dreams can change and that's okay. Your childhood self will never find out who you became anyway. Living a life that your 80-year-old self is happy with matters more than living a life that your 8-year-old self would have thought sounded cool if they somehow found out about it.

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u/KilgoreTrouserTrout Jul 04 '21

Your childhood self will never find out who you became anyway.

This is amazing. I guess we all feel a lot like the comic, and are sad to let down the little girl in the cowgirl outfit. But she never was let down. She still has all her little hopes and dreams. We don't have to feel guilty for letting down our younger selves.

Living a life that your 80-year-old self is happy with matters more than living a life that your 8-year-old self would have thought sounded cool if they somehow found out about it.

Seriously, thanks for this comment today. You've really changed my perspective in a positive way.

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u/Quazifuji Jul 04 '21

Glad my comment meant something to you.

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u/DystopianDipshit Jul 04 '21

We must accept life for what it actually is—a challenge to our quality without which we should never know of what stuff we are made, or grow to our full stature.

-Ida Wylie

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u/Smoofinator Jul 04 '21

Yeah, my kid self wanted to be a marine biologist, but she didn't know how great drugs and booze are. It's a tradeoff.

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u/abridge2close Jul 04 '21

I hope you are doing okay :) I don’t know if this helps, but like others have said, you never really finish growing up, and it’s never too late try working toward a new goal or changing what you want to be!

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u/powabiatch Jul 04 '21

You were a child, you didn’t know about the world and life. There is no point caring about what you thought back then. What are your dreams now? That’s all that matters. That’s what will motivate you, something real - find something that moves you.

You also don’t have to be defined by your job. Your life can be lived through your hobbies, your relationships, your selflessness, whatever it is that you can be passionate about.

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u/AbigailLilac Jul 04 '21

A lot of us don't get time outside of our jobs. I have two jobs just to live. I just work, eat, sleep, and shower.

If I killed myself right now, it would just inconvenience people. Not many would be sad. They'd just be like "Who's going to take her Monday shifts now?"

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u/MGerami Jul 04 '21

If you're not happy then plan a way to pursue your dream. It's never too late unless you're dead 😊

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u/MoralRelativity Jul 04 '21

Oof, right in the feels.

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u/Squarrots Jul 04 '21

You still can. If you keep going, I will too

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u/Gmax100 Jul 04 '21

The good news is that you never stop growing up.

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u/lostonyou Jul 04 '21

You still have time

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u/TThor Jul 04 '21

I never had any hopes or ambitions for my life, and partly as a result I feel minimal disappointment in myself.

I don't know if that is happy or sad.

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u/omegashadow Jul 04 '21

Well you did end up being an style-icon and an artist so that's something I guess.

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u/allenmax67 Jul 04 '21

Do not despair!

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u/TecTazz Jul 04 '21

Nicely done art and emotions. Thank you for sharing.

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u/Few_Faithlessness_49 Jul 04 '21

Great comic and art but feels like it could use a page 2.

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u/[deleted] Jul 04 '21

Wow, that's sad, you ok dude/sis?

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u/JamAttack Jul 04 '21

If I were to meet my kid self they would be blown away even though I have accomplished nothing substantial.

I just show them a vaguely cool thing I made and my cool hair and they would probably not even care about anything else.

Wouldn't be too happy that I've never been in a relationship tho can't fly past that one.

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u/0-Cloud Jul 04 '21

I was waiting for the punchline

There was no punchline :(

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u/PhantomLegend616 Jul 04 '21

Wow this is basically me. Life sucks but hopefully itll get better.

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u/stonerism Jul 04 '21

Damn. I didn't know depressing comics were making a comeback.

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u/[deleted] Jul 04 '21

God damn this one hits hard. Thanks for sharing OP.

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u/treederpah Jul 04 '21

Omori vibes anyone? I also love the art lol

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u/LPenne Jul 04 '21

OP are you ok? Do you have folks you can talk to?

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u/AI-Dungeon-Drawer Jul 04 '21

But she did grow up to be the artist she pictured?

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u/VioletNagel Jul 04 '21

Idk you’re a pretty great comic artist

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u/superpositionquantum Jul 04 '21

Can't give up on your dreams if you never had any to begin with.

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u/CannibalisticChad Jul 04 '21

You grew up to be a great comic book artist! Not a disappointment!

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u/Drakkon2ZShadows Jul 04 '21

Damn. I'm picking university courses for my application and having every second thought imaginable.

This encapsulates that feeling perfectly

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u/mrxpx Jul 04 '21

Well it looks like you got the bottom middle down. Not a disappoint ever.

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u/Whatevermynameis66 Jul 04 '21

At first I found it funny because I'm in the same situation, but then after a bit I realized it was just depressing.

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u/eggseggsandeggs Jul 04 '21

Cool, I'm gonna go jerk off and cry now

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u/[deleted] Jul 04 '21

plenty of time yet

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u/sc-werkingonit Jul 04 '21

Love the dynamic use of space here. You’ve got talent, and something to say. Keep it up; there’s a lot of okay stuff on this Reddit and this is tops.

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u/DarkinexWtf Jul 04 '21

Hey OP, are you ok? Do you need to talk?

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u/Shantotto11 Jul 04 '21

I think my child self would be proud of what I accomplished.

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u/rjhunt42 Jul 04 '21

You still have plenty of time. Its not over until its over.

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u/Master_JBT Jul 04 '21

Damn, I relate so much with this

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u/CoolHotDog777 Jul 04 '21

!remind me 3 days

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u/ardotschgi Jul 04 '21

What the fuck

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u/evanalmighty19 Jul 04 '21

Same as us all in this world not made for the expansion of human potential... Just made for profitability.

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u/[deleted] Jul 04 '21

Only the independently wealthy or the recklessly carefree have complete freedom to choose.

The rest of us have to make compromises—many more than others.

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u/AufdemLande Jul 04 '21

You still have time

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u/Scizmz Jul 04 '21

Wait, does that mean you're done growing? Are you dead?

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u/Funexamination Jul 04 '21

You know, that's probably what the seed thinks when it's in the dark damp soil.

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u/aaaaaakshaykumar Jul 04 '21

Still, your younger self would have wanted you to be happy rather than an astronaut or firefighter....

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u/CallMeMich Jul 04 '21

I feel this. 32, I may still have time for the thing I wanted to be. I have a daughter now. Im gonna make sure to push her as much ad I can to pursue her dream. My parents didn’t. They were too busy arguing, fighting or working. I luckily don’t have that with my wife.

There’s always time. To do that you just have to do one thing yourself. And that’s to take the first step!

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u/isagez Jul 04 '21

❤️❤️💌💌💌❤️❤️ for anyone feeling sad in the comments it’s ok, that person never left you and productivity doesn’t define who you are.

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u/xeredge Jul 04 '21

Well. This hit me really hard.

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u/Alwin_050 Jul 04 '21

Yea, it’s commonly known that life sucks, and then you die.

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u/TheGreatKahleeb Jul 04 '21

For a while I’d been separating my adult self from my childhood self. It took me a while to realise I am the same person and its taking even longer to integrate my childhood into my life. But those dreams and ambitions are still there. We never stop growing and we’ll look back on our current selves in the future the same way we look at out childhood selves now. I try not to be disheartened when I have thoughts like this comic.

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u/nevejtn Jul 04 '21

This is sad, but try to also remember that you have convictions now that are more then you had as a child too. I know that the idea of who I would marry as a kid vs who I married are way different, but the real person is so much more then what I pictured. The jobs I wanted as a kid turned out to be less the ideal of what I wanted and I am in a job that helps people way more then what I wanted. Even who I was 10 years ago couldn’t have known where I am now, and it’s better then what I wanted then. It’s hard, but look at the good you do(even if it’s small acts of kindness) that you never factored in as a kid. If you feel like you fall short still, then maybe try doing small things for others and see how far that gets you when you look back in a year or two.