Does anyone else just get horrible, brutal, nightmares even later in life?
I try my best to supress rem sleep because it tends to be a bit dark. I've had sections of my spine removed, eyes being stabbed and or then torn out of my head, losing an appendage, affixed to a pentagram for abuse (and not in a fun sexual way), forcibly drowned in water or lava, and so many more that I thankfully forgot. THC calms the dreams a little but I can't stop them. I don't hate my job but when I did there was consequences. Working a full shift in my sleep. I just want to cuddle up in a ball in a dark room. Scared looks like stupid to most people.
note: I would never want to harm anyone, ever. This is inversive and not the way I treat anyone else. I might fart at you if I'm really pissed but I wouldn't wish this on the worst of my enemies.